PreTenDiNg yOu

Reducin the sound of carillon with mah life is not just bcoz of u on my heart... 

this line doesn't sound me good..

i m unsocial in d flow of ego n jealousy...

i hav no place for dat..

i hav been helped by u n vice versa also ...

not to give command or demand ..

each n evry time i regret ,,gettin no time to think nething 

i quit 

i quit again

n i quit..

knowin ur state of mind,i m gonna adopt myself..

i don't wanna hurt u but still continuing ...

i should b sorry..

i hav listened if sum1 find god, he'll.but honesty should be dere...

but i dont believe dis nemore...

bcoz of u(ma'm)... 

NASTIK-the word which indicates the opposite direction given by god...
NASTIK-the ego which arises in human being...
NASTIK-the strength which tends to achieve their goal widout nebody....
NASTIK-only thinkin about people around u...
NASTIK-my papa used to call me.....
may b he called me nastik bcoz i hav no need of god....
he'll b der...
i really want 2 b called that wen u cum at 11 o'clock wid ur joyfull enjoyment...
i wont b regret...
promisee
n don't forget 2 get frooti...
i really miss u baba..
dont let me go near god plzz..
nw at dis moment noone is wid me...
mah frens,whom i love,whom for i care....
n i hav no aim....
let me build mah life .......
then u may leave but at that time i m ready to leave wid u...
i love to be alone  but  with u..

sOMe fACts SomE DreAMs......

everyone have a destination.....startin from ant endin at abdul kalam ....

all r lookin initiation for their destination...

it may be the path leadin to their dreams...

n after achieving dis it is confined as fact.

but i havn't that much daring to dream or may not have chances or may not have such qualities...

i was suppressed  by this society which has sum boundaries..

now i was made in such a manner that whatever i found  in the world taken as fact(object or true)n rest is dream(image or false).

i want to in my own way in my own criterion why u people don't understand me??????
 
why i have sum dreams???????

why i bound wid u peoples' thought,experience,culture????

why i respect u????

why i obey ur order in  every time ??????

what do u want 4m me???

m i the only whom u want make addicted of ur thoughts...

i have two eyes that doesn't mean i c ur imagination...

why i respect the society?????

it doesn't have any care about mah destination..

alas!!!!

it is also not given any chance to think about myself...

so  who is responsible for the recent state of mine i.e. no dream thoughts????

it answers either society or myself.

society confined responsible to me n myself abide wid the society......
 

Mahiiiii....angel of mah soul

Today i feel like  annoyer of the universe along with me except thinking about u....


i always murmur about u inside mah heart n mind in everywhere in everyplace....
i may not have that much quality,empowerment n personality
to make impress of happiness in ur mind.....
and i also dont want that..
i know my love to mahii is pure so why i mix sum external factor to make u happy for a while....

i dont knoe whether i will able to make feel that i love u.. 
but i just want to c u in happy mood ,surrounding n  ur success touches u every time...
everybody collaborates their love wid happiness but i dont think so..
'mahii' the word of love always made me complete to every step ..
she may not be mine....
she may not feel the way i feel...
but i always try to fill her in color of rainbow n i will be try till my life leads to end...
as my sense says mahii is so hideous, n i also want that c must  keep that quality inside her....
bcoz i respect her as much as i respect her quality ,thoughts,confession,moves etc. etc..
so mahii concludes mah life as c may or may not be wid me but i always like to be wid her..
n i never try to get u unless while u feel mah loveeee
n mah love to u never be like sun or moon...it will always like eveng time of summer ,day time of winter n starting drops of rain . its simple,pure n full of ur feelings. 
miss ya....

i DoN't eveN ThiNk maH dREamS aRE likE ShAdoW Of mAh bodY.....

'I' is the word of success...
i don't believe, i believe in u n ur thoughts.
it doesn't matter u mean it or not.
yes my past is not up to the mark but if i ruled over ur thoughts it may be perfect...
i have done mistakes . n these mistakes make me happy because i can't catch my shadows even  no one but its achievement for me which is impossible...
that's mah dream..
still i never loose my strength ,mah honesty towards u through out whole life.....
                                                             i really mean my thoughts,
                                                           and I mEaN U...... 

life is not a SoAp BuBbLe it's just like a UsE n ThRouGh pEn..

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 Life starts with a cry, it doesn't matter it must be end with a great success.............

let i am the life n people always said that ,"i must be burst like a soap bubble "


there again arises some probabilities.


it might be blast of  sweet orange , a high definition of atomic bomb or  a last drop ink of use and through pen.


i can't put out my thoughts on the other two cases i.e. orange n bomb....


because they are usual.


people were die with either sorrow or happiness.but i want to emphasize how people manage with the pen which have limited ink.
i think that why i live out my life with limited ink.

people saw the bubble n enjoying it after bursting it said that it is life. why???
they should think that we are used like a pen after it we are going to be thrown.

so  to be successful in society is not a big deal.

its how to manage the time of the life in order to get self satisfaction is most important.

i am trying a lot to understand the above words but others are never tried to understand me.....

so i go with the flow ........